UNFAIR?

I was born with multiple medical and health issues, as it is all part of my rare condition called, Alagille Syndrome, and one of it is my vision. I was born with vision impairment which means I’ve lived with low vision my whole life. My whole life, I’ve always had to see an eye specialist, or ophthalmologist. Each visit the eye specialist would check and test my eyesight/vision and review the results before reporting it to my parents (especially when I was younger). Despite all these trips to the hospital to see the ophthalmologist, interestingly, we were never told that “you might be blind one day”, or “your eye condition could lead to blindness one day”.

One afternoon as I was going to the hospital for a routine eye appointment, I found out that my right eye is legally blind (and my left eye will probably progress as well). I was 29.

n my book, Alagille Girl, I shared some of the tough questions I asked after finding out that my right eye is legally blind (and my left eye will probably progress as well). As I asked those tough questions, I felt so frustrated and mad at my situation. In all my years of sickness, not once have I considered, or called my circumstances “unfair”, until now. In saying this, one thing I gotta point out is I was not mad at myself nor was I mad at God.No, and that was amazing part. Perhaps it was because of this, the next thing I knew, I was being ministered by the Lord.

A still small voice lovingly challenged me by asking asimple question, “You want to talk about unfair?” Then, I was reminded of my Saviour’s suffering on the cross for me. “Jesus died on the cross for you when you should have been the one dying for your own sins.This is unfair. But because Jesus loves you very much, He took your place and died for you.” In that moment, my eyes were open and I wasn’t blinded to my own sorrowful feeling and situation anymore. I wasn’t blinded in thinking my situation was unfair. “Oh yeah, that is so true” I said to myself. Jesus taking my place on the cross is the unfairest of them all and I can’t complain because there is no comparison at all. Christ dying on the cross for me compared to my blindness, His story supersedes mine. For me, this reminder helped and since then the word “unfair” flew away from my vocab book.

“Christ died for you and on that cross God laid on Him the sins of us all. We deserve hell. We deserve judgement. We deserve to pay the price for our sins. But Jesus took them voluntarily on the cross and on that cross He had the capacity, because He is the God Man, to see you sitting here now. He looked ahead this thousands of years and He could see you and He knew you. He knew all about you and He loved you and He’s willing to forgive you and give you purpose and meaning in your life and change your life.” -Billy Graham